For about a week now, I’ve had this little fantasy I can’t shake: Could I ever be part of a transgender photoshoot or a transgender fashion show?

This post was inspired by this article on Kandi’s Land. Short version? She modeled at Ohio Fashion Week—and even walked in New York. Like, what?! Meanwhile, I see girls like Hannah McKnight doing stunning shoots all the time. And I can’t help but wonder… could that ever be me?

I have zero experience with transgender fashion shows or transgender photoshoots. Like, none. So yes, I know this is all pure fantasy. I’m sure real life works way differently than I imagine. But still—the idea of a transgender photoshoot or a transgender fashion show? It feels powerful. And honestly? Kind of magical.

Why I Dream of a Transgender Photoshoot

I feel like there are so few events actually aimed at people like us. And if they do exist? They’re almost never anywhere near me. So, to be part of something like a transgender photoshoot or a transgender fashion show? That’s about visibility. It’s about showing the world—and myself—that trans people are real, diverse, beautiful human beings.

Here’s the thing: I’m not out to most people in my life. I’m still in therapy. I’m not on hormones. I’m… in between. But having an opportunity to be visible—even for a day—in a place where no one knows me? With a camera pointed at me instead of me hiding behind one? That’s a thrilling thought.

Of course, there’s a vanity piece to it. However, more than anything, it’s about validation. Confidence. Feeling seen. And let’s be honest—that’s something I struggle with hard.

How This Fantasy Could Open Up My World

I’ve never been to New York. Or really… anywhere outside my little bubble. So, the idea of traveling as Michelle? Even just for a weekend? That feels like the dream. Being in a new city where I could just exist without the constant fear of being recognized or judged? That’s freedom. That’s possibility.

Honestly, I’d love to meet other girls like me. Meet people like Kandi. Or Hannah. Hear their stories. Share mine. And maybe even connect with folks who aren’t trans but who get it. I’d also love to talk to makeup artists, designers—anyone who could help me learn how to dress for my body. You know I’d totally be the girl asking, “Can I buy you a coffee and pick your brain?”

What I’d Wear for a Transgender Photoshoot

I don’t think I’d do lingerie or super kinky stuff—it’s just not my vibe for something like this. (Not saying I’m not kinky… but, baby, that’s a different conversation.) I think I’d love a transgender photoshoot or a transgender fashion show that feels like me.

I imagine casual everyday looks. Pretty evening wear. Maybe even a stunning ball gown. (Seriously—a ball gown?! I would die.) Cosplay would also be a blast! God, I’ve always had this obsession with Disney princesses and that gender envy they spark. How fun would that be? Or even a Comic-Con inspired look.

Besides, having actual, high-quality photos of myself? Photos that aren’t selfies? That aren’t me scrambling for a flattering angle? That idea feels like a gift. Like maybe I’d finally see myself the way I want people to see me.

How This Could Help My Confidence

The truth? I’ve only been out in public a handful of times. My fear—my shame—keeps me small. Yet, slowly, I’m working on it. I’m pushing myself out more. And something like a transgender photoshoot or a transgender fashion show? I think it would be huge for building my confidence.

Would I be nervous as hell? Absolutely. Still, I think it would show me that I really can do it.

Is This Just a Fantasy… Or Could It Actually Happen?

Honestly? I don’t know. Probably not. It feels more like a fantasy than a real opportunity. However, seeing women like Kandi and Hannah making it happen? It gives me hope.

If the right opportunity came up—and it was far enough from home, with enough notice—I think I’d do it. Even with the fear. Even with the nerves. Because deep down… I want it.


Have you ever dreamed of something like this? A transgender photoshoot? A transgender fashion show? What would it mean for you?
I’d seriously love to hear your thoughts.


1 Comment

Amanda · July 19, 2025 at 9:39 am

I had that dream too, specifically I wanted to know what I’d look like as a woman, not just a CDer. In the end, I took a deep breath and contacted Boys Will Be Girls, the internationally renowned London dressing service run by the supremely talented and absolutely gorgeous Cindy Conti. I’m lucky that I only live 30 minutes away by train so it was a no brainer in my case (apart from the £300 fee (now £450) which took a lot of consideration).

The whole thing was transformative and not just physically. Most of us spend our lives hiding but in the four hours I spent with Cindy, I could talk openly about this side of me and be treated as completely normal, not the freak I feared myself to be. I also came away with over 150 photos of the three looks we tried.

Sadly, the cost has put a return visit out of reach for the foreseeable future but seeing what could be achieved on the face I’ve at best tolerated and at worst hated for my life spurred me on to see how far I could get without professional help. That in turn gave me the confidence to break free from the closet and enjoy life in the outside world, nothing special just shoppinig and interacting with sales assistants and baristas as any woman would.

I can’t recommend this sort of experience highly enough but you need to choose carefully. Not every makeup artist understands the differences in facial anatomy between men and women and it’s important to find one whose work with the TG community is displayed on their website and is likely to give you the look you’re looking for. I know that BWBG isn’t exactly local for you but Cindy has many clients who fly in from other parts of the world just to experience her expertise so it’s worth considering. Failing that, I know that there are several well known ones in the US so all is not lost for you!

I hope your dream comes true soon!

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