The Mental Toll of Hiding My Feminine Side
Crossdressing brings peace—but not being able to express it fully can be mentally exhausting. Here’s how I’m learning to cope with the emotional toll.
I’m Michelle. I spent years stuck between genders and labels—crossdresser, sissy, trans, wife, partner, kinkster, girl? I didn’t know what to call myself, and for a long time, I thought I had to pick just one.
But the truth was, I didn’t fully fit into any of them.
I was stuck Between Genders. Pulled in different directions, wanting things that didn’t always make sense together. And for a while, I thought that meant something was wrong with me.
Between Genders is the messy, beautiful result of working through that.
It started as a journal—just me trying to make sense of my own identity. But it’s grown into something bigger: a space for anyone questioning their gender, exploring their kink, or trying to stay connected to someone they love while figuring it all out.
It’s part guidebook, part emotional spiral, part “holy shit I can’t believe I’m saying this out loud.”
I write to understand myself—and to help you feel less alone while you figure yourself out too.
Crossdressing brings peace—but not being able to express it fully can be mentally exhausting. Here’s how I’m learning to cope with the emotional toll.
Crossdressing made me question my sexuality—and I’m glad it did. Here’s what I discovered, and why it’s okay not to have all the answers.
My trauma didn’t cause me to be trans—but it delayed everything. Here’s how childhood trauma and gender identity shaped my path, and why I came out so late.
Crossdressing for sexual pleasure is normal and valid. Here’s why it’s okay, how to do it respectfully, and what it taught me about myself.
Is crossdressing always sexual? Not necessarily. Here’s how I navigate the line between kink, identity, and comfort—and why it’s all valid.
The desire to crossdress isn’t always constant. Here’s why it fluctuates, what it means, and how I’m learning to accept the ebb and flow.
Dressing can feel right but look wrong. Here’s how I’m handling dysphoria, discomfort, and using it to guide my gender and crossdressing journey.
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