A few days ago, I got an email that asked why I write so much. It was direct—maybe a little critical—but I could tell it came from a place of concern. You’re doing too much. You’re going to burn out.
And honestly? I get it. Two posts a day is a lot. Most bloggers would say that pace isn’t sustainable—and they’re right. After nearly 100 posts, I’m starting to feel it too. So yeah… I’m slowing down. One post a day moving forward.
But I still wanted to take a moment to talk about why I write so much in the first place. Because even if the pace is changing, the reasons haven’t.
Writing Helps Me Process My Experience
This blog is part journal, part documentation, and part reflection. Writing gives me space to sort through the thoughts and feelings I experience every day. When I write about something, it forces me to slow down and make sense of it. Why did I feel that way? What did that moment mean? How does it connect to everything else I’ve been navigating?
Why I write so much starts here: it gives me the mental clarity to process what I’m going through. Without writing, I don’t know how I’d be managing the emotional intensity of everything that’s coming up right now.
Writing Helps Me Learn
I’m in the middle of a transformation. And I don’t mean that in a vague, motivational way—I mean that literally. I’m actively working through what it means to be transgender, and to possibly transition. I’m learning everything from scratch: fitness, fashion, skincare, hormones, voice training, social dynamics, internal identity.
Writing gives me a way to take in what I learn, reflect on it, and explain it to someone else. That reflection makes it stick. It’s a method of learning, and also a form of teaching. That’s one more reason why I write so much.
Writing Helps Other People Like Me
There are a surprising number of us living somewhere between genders—crossdressers, trans women, genderfluid people, people still figuring it out. And yet, the resources for that in-between space? They’re incredibly limited.
So part of my goal is to build a space that makes that journey easier. A blog that holds as much helpful, accessible, affirming information as possible. I want someone like me to be able to type a question into Google and actually find an answer that makes them feel seen.
Writing Gives Michelle a Place to Exist
I don’t live as Michelle full time. As much as I want to, I’m not there yet. Writing is one of the few ways I get to be her consistently. This blog is a place where I can speak in her voice, think her thoughts, reflect on her identity.
Writing is how I live as Michelle. That’s a major reason why I write so much.
It’s not just expression—it’s presence. Every post I write is another moment where she exists out loud.
Writing Is My Lifeline
This blog has become more than a project. It’s started to feel like a lifeline. Like the one thing that gives my identity space, structure, and purpose.
It’s also how I’m trying to build something lasting. I want to make this sustainable. I want to cover the costs of therapy, clothing, medical care. I want this work to support the life I’m trying to build. That means content. That means visibility. That means growth. Yes, it also means money.
So I write. A lot. Because that’s how this starts to become real. That’s also why I write so much.
Why I Write So Much
I write because I’m learning so much and need a place to put it. I write because I’m feeling so much and need a way to understand it. I write because I know how hard this journey is, and I want it to be easier for the next person.
I also write because Michelle doesn’t have many places to exist—and this blog is one of them.
And most of all, I write because this feels like the only way to make her real. Not just emotionally. Practically. Day by day. Post by post.
I’ve written a lot in a short time. And that helped me build the foundation.
But moving forward, I’ll be posting just once a day. Not because I’m giving up—but because I want to make this sustainable.
This isn’t the end of the momentum.
It’s just the start of the rhythm.
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