Hello, lovelies!
I’m Michelle. I used to question if I was just a crossdresser or maybe genderfluid. But the truth became impossible to ignore:
I’m transgender.
This blog is where I try to make sense of what that means—day by day, post by post, moment by moment.
It’s not polished. It’s not perfect. But it’s real. And it’s mine.
My Gender Journey (So Far)
I grew up knowing I felt different. Dressing feminine started as a secret thrill—but it grew into something deeper. Something I couldn’t explain away. The more I explored, the more everything cracked open: my gender identity, my sexuality, my sense of self.
I questioned if I was just a crossdresser. Or maybe genderfluid. But over time, the truth became harder to ignore: I’m transgender.
And yet… my life isn’t built around that truth. I’m married. I have kids. A career. Responsibilities. People who know me as someone else. There’s a version of my life that looks solid from the outside—stable, even. But underneath that, there’s this quiet ache. This constant tension between who I am and what I’m allowed to show.
I don’t know what full transition would even look like for me. Or if it’s possible. Or safe. Some days it feels too late. Like I missed my window. But even if I can’t be Michelle out loud all the time—I am her. That’s the part I can’t ignore anymore.
Becoming Michelle: Feminization, Fitness, and Care
Michelle isn’t just a name I use when I dress up. She’s the version of me that feels most aligned—most alive. She’s soft. She’s kind. She makes me want to grow.
Since embracing this part of myself, I’ve started taking care of my body differently. I’m learning to eat better. To move with intention. To dress in ways that flatter my body—not some imaginary one. I’m practicing makeup. I’m building confidence. I’m starting to feel at home in my own skin.
It’s not that masculinity felt wrong. It just never felt right.
But femininity? It fits. And I’m done pretending otherwise.
Exploring Kink and Sexuality
This journey didn’t just crack open gender—it also opened up questions about kink, desire, and identity.
I’ve always had submissive leanings. But I’ve found myself pulled toward things like feminization, sissification, ABDL, impact play, and deep sexual submission. Not because I’m chasing kink for its own sake—but because these spaces let me be Michelle in a way nothing else ever has.
It’s not about what I’m doing. It’s about who I get to be while I do it.
When I’m seen as feminine—when I’m treated that way—I feel something click. Like my outside finally matches my inside. It’s powerful. It’s messy. Sometimes it’s shameful. But it’s also honest. And it’s mine.
Why I Started This Blog
I started this blog because I needed a place to put all the questions that wouldn’t leave me alone. But I keep writing it because I know I’m not the only one.
Between Genders is where I unpack the complicated, confusing, terrifying, and sometimes joyful reality of being trans in a life that wasn’t built for it. It’s where I cry. Where I rant. Where I explore my sexuality, my identity, my shame, and my growth.
And it’s also where I share what I learn—because I am still learning. I didn’t know anything about makeup when I started. Or how to dress for my body. Or how food and hormones affect how I feel. I’ve fumbled through fitness, feminization, skincare, kink, and confidence. I’m still figuring it out. And I want to help others figure it out too.
Because this isn’t just about me.
I created this blog because I know how confusing, isolating, and overwhelming this journey can feel. I want to create a space where others like me—crossdressers, genderfluid folks, questioning trans people, kinky souls—can see parts of themselves reflected. I want to be honest about the highs and lows, the doubts and discoveries. Maybe something I write will answer the exact question someone else is afraid to ask. Maybe it’ll help someone feel seen. Maybe it’ll help someone’s partner understand just a little more.
That’s the hope. That’s why I’m here.
Who This Blog Is For
- Transgender women (closeted or out)
- Crossdressers who wonder if there’s more under the surface
- Genderfluid or questioning folks figuring it out
- Curious partners trying to love and support someone on this path
- Anyone exploring femininity, kink, mental health, or identity
- People who feel alone in this journey and need someone to say “me too”
What This Blog Is Not
This isn’t a gallery of sexy crossdressing photos. For some, that’s part of the journey—and that’s totally valid. But for me, this isn’t about looking hot or turning heads.
I don’t feel particularly sexy anyway.
What I’m after is something deeper: comfort. identity. honesty.
I’m not here for attention. I’m here to figure out who I am and why.
What to Expect from Between Genders
- Deeply personal posts on gender, kink, and self-discovery
- Honest reflections on femininity, shame, identity, and desire
- Feminization content with emotional and psychological depth
- Fitness, nutrition, and self-care practices for gender expression
- Reviews of products, toys, books, and resources that help me grow
- Frequent posts (daily-ish now, every 2–3 days after August)
Final Thought: You’re Not Alone
I don’t have it all figured out. But I’m here. Asking the questions. Sitting in the feelings. Trying to move forward.
If you are too?
I’m so glad you found me.
Love always,
Michelle