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Hey, lovelies.
Crossdressing has become a huge part of my life. I’m not a full-time crossdresser, though—I can’t be. My career and family responsibilities don’t leave room for that. As the sole breadwinner and with my wife staying home with our kids, crossdressing is something I have to hide. But even though I can’t live in “girl mode” all the time, I’ve come to realize just how important it is to me.
It’s more than just a hobby or a form of self-expression—it’s become part of who I am. Crossdressing has literally shifted how I think about myself, my body, and my life. And while I don’t get to express this side of me fully every day, I now find ways to incorporate feminine elements into my routine whenever I can.
Note from Michelle:
This post originally appeared on my old blog, Crossdresser Chronicles. I’ve moved it here because it still reflects an important part of my journey. Some details may be out of date, or lightly updated to fit where I am now.
👉 Read more about why I brought these posts over.
Finding the Balance Between Self-Expression and Responsibility
The internal conflict is real. I want to express my femininity, but I also have to fulfill my responsibilities as a husband, father, and provider. It’s not easy balancing these two sides of myself, but I’ve learned how to integrate them without sacrificing either. I’ve found ways to incorporate small, subtle feminine elements into my everyday life that allow me to stay connected to that side of me without completely disrupting my routine.
I take better care of my skin, for example. I’m learning about makeup—something I now wear almost every day to work, even though I’m still not very good at it. I’ve started paying more attention to my diet in order to feminize my body, and I exercise specifically to shape it properly. But it’s not just about physical changes—it’s also about making space for my feminine side to exist, even if it’s just in small ways.
Incorporating Feminine Elements Into My Day
Even though I’m not able to crossdress full-time, I’ve found ways to weave feminine energy into my boy mode routine. I wear panties and a sports bra under my clothes when I go to work. I’ve also started incorporating a few women’s clothing items into my wardrobe, like mid-rise bootcut jeans that blend seamlessly into my daily attire. I’m also looking into a double-breasted pea coat and I LOVE the idea of fitted blazers.
It’s a time-consuming process, though. I spend about 10 minutes each morning doing my makeup, trying to improve my skills. I dedicate my lunch break to walking for weight loss while listening to an audiobook. Then I spend 20-30 minutes exercising, shaping my body. On the days my wife goes out with friends, I can take about half an hour to fully transform after the kids are asleep. That’s the only time I can really immerse myself in my girl mode. And I use that time to just do my usual activities—writing, programming, or something creative.
When my wife texts me to say she’s on her way home, I have to undo everything—quickly, of course. It’s definitely time-consuming, and it makes me appreciate how much effort goes into looking feminine. It’s not just the clothes, the makeup, or the body—there’s a lot of work and dedication that goes into maintaining that femininity.
Making Time for Myself
The balancing act is ongoing. It’s not easy to juggle my responsibilities while trying to stay true to myself, but I’ve learned to make time for both. Finding moments of self-expression—even in small ways—helps me feel more aligned with who I am. It’s not always easy to fit it all in, but the key is learning to carve out time for myself, without losing sight of my role in the family.
There are times when it’s draining—the time, the effort, and the mental load of having to fit all of this into my life. But it’s worth it. Even though I can’t crossdress all the time, I’ve found a way to stay connected to that part of me that feels like it belongs, that makes me feel whole.
Final Thoughts: Finding Your Own Balance
If you’re in a similar position, trying to balance your crossdressing journey with your everyday responsibilities, know that it’s okay to take small steps. Whether it’s through clothing, makeup, or physical changes, you can integrate your feminine side into your life without losing sight of your other roles. It’s about finding harmony, patience, and space for both parts of who you are.
Crossdressing doesn’t have to take over your life to be important. Small moments of expression can still make a big impact. And as we learn to balance these sides of ourselves, we can live authentically without compromising the responsibilities that matter most to us.
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